I never thought it was possible to "make yourself sick" from crying...that is, until tonight.
I had my mom take me back to my dads from the derby because my neck is really really sore and I couldn't sit there anymore. So I was just gonna go home, take a shower, and lay down. I asked my dad for a key (I didn't wanna make him and everyone in that house come home) so he gave me a key to the house and I left with my mom. My mom wanted to see something I had in my room so I told her to wait outside in case they came home for some reason. They were going to finish watching the derby then go to dinner, so really, they weren't going to be home for another few hours. My mom wanted to see my room, so she didn't listen to me, and came inside. When we went outside, Bob (Katie's dad) was standing in the driveway, just standing there like some kinda of guard. So I whispered to my mom "what did I tell you!?" She he gets pissed, Katie gets pissed, and my dad calls me telling me I just disrespected that whole household. WHAT THE FUCK!? HOW IS IT NOT DISRESPECTFUL TO ME WHEN THEY FOLLOWED ME HOME TO WATCH TO BE SURE MY MOM DIDNT FUCKING ENTER THEIR HOUSE?! I mean seriously...I wasn't disrespecting anybody. My mom walked from the front door to my room and back to the front door THATS IT!

So I moved back to my moms because I'm not going to live with a family that wont even let my mother see MY room. They even said at graduation that she could come to my party but Rick couldn't. Whats the difference?!

My dad leaves in 6 days, and I wanted to spend some time alone with him, go to the movies or something...but that's not going to happen....

I wish I could just buy a better life or something...